Through a Glass Darkly

I now believe that when something happens that brings indescribable pain, it is essential to stop feeling for a time in order to survive.  from Dreams for Stones by Ann Warner

This has been my life for the last two years even though I didn’t realize it. Deep emotions articulated so exactly boggles my mind. Such flashes of brilliance help make sense of the unthinkable and provide a sense of community with those experiencing similar pain. I find myself deeply grateful for the clarity of expression that reminds me there are others who understand my circumstances.

During this season in my life I couldn’t fully understand how muted I’d become until I started emerging from the fog of grief. Shafts of joy and engagement have begun piercing the muzziness of detachment. I thank God for the emotional distance that helped me muddle through to this point and trust He will continue to carry me through to the joy that I glimpse through the mist.